1) I will stand my watch and set myself on the rampart, and watch to see what He will say to me, and what I will answer when I am corrected. 2) Then the Lord answered me and said: "Write the vision and make it plain on tablets, that he may runs who reads it. 3) For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it shall speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; Because it will surely come, it will not tarry..."

Habakkuk 2: 1 - 3

I interpret this as encouragement for the moments we are hit by random thoughts and ideas and desires that pop in our heads. Some may say to us, "What makes you think you can do that? Nobody has ever done anything like that!" But let's take those random morsels of passion, put them to paper, and set them before God consistently in prayer. And as we pray, let's believe what the vision says and start to move our feet like the runner in verse 2. The vision was set forth and my man took off running!

Prayer is all about going to God with the matters of our heart, believing that we will receive the guidance we were seeking, and then acting (running, not meandering) as if we have it.  When the time is right, Voilà! -- look at what the Lord has done for us!
As I have recently been in a "let me see how I was thinking years ago" mode of self (re)-discovery, I came across this journal entry from my junior year in high school:
24 Octobre* 2000, 1:07 AM

Okay, I don't really know why I'm writing right now, so I'll just keep my hand moving until I think of something to write about.

On Sat. I took the PSATs. I think that I did pretty well, especially when compared to last year's 1060 prediction with a 167 selection index. When I took a practice test, the Wed. before, I earned a 1240 and a 182 index. So the practice test was definitely helpful in taking the test. I'll be pretty satisfied as long as I score over 1240, preferably over 1300.

Since I've been in college mode, I've been thinking about just what it is I'd like to do with my life. I know for sure that I'd like to have an artistic career, whether it be film, music, or photography. I also know that a sound background in computers will be necessary in the future so I know that will have to be something I remain proficient in.

I've also been thinking journalism as a possibility. Working with a magazine would be nice. I still also want to run my own shit, too. So if I were to start out doing photojournalism for a magazine, then work my way to the top and eventually run that or start my own, I'll be straight.

I don't know yet. I'll figure it out.

Peace for now,
A-Jay

Well, alright then.

Now, I won't front like I had as intimate of a relationship with Christ then as I do now. In fact, my fifteen year old self was pretty good at fronting at a lot of things - holyrolling and playa-playing (quite a combination) were a couple of them. But I'll argue in retrospect that, despite my not knowing why I was writing this entry, God knew why and had appointed that moment in time long before I was born.

Almost seven years later, I can proudly say that, along with some of the best friends and comrades that anyone could ask for, I have a movie, an album, and lots of photography and design experience under my belt. Oh, and I'd say I know a little something about computers and starting a magazine, too.

Peace to** Sphere Incorporated. And praise the Lord for the great things He has done.


Footnotes
*I had lived in France for a month during the Summer of 2000 and was doing my darndest to keep my French up.
**Peace to The Boy Wonder for the "Peace to..." phraseology.